THE BIG QUESTION “WILL I BE ABLE TO?”

A baby asked God, “They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?”

“Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you.”

The child further inquired, “But tell me, here in heaven I don’t have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy.”

God said, “Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel’s love and be very happy.”

“Who will protect me?”

God said, “Your angel will defend you even if it means risking it’s life.”

the child hurriedly asked, “God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel’s name.”

“You will simply call her, ‘Mom.’”

I had read this story when I was just a child and looked upto my mom for what role she had played in my life. Then, I didn’t know or probably I didn’t realise, that someday I’ll be a mom too………….I’ll be an angel as well and that too to my two cute little girls. Yes, I have Twins- Ananya and Pallavi.

When I came to know I am expecting twins, the big question struck me as well “Will I be able to handle it?” I know I know I have been always passionate about little ones and was quite ardent to have my own. But to know that you’ll soon have double the responsibility dawning on you, you certainly tend to become wary of your own abilities.

They are more than a year now. I can recollect every moment I have spent with them. I have a log of every little milestone, their likes, their dislikes and most importantly how different they are from each other. But honestly, amidst all this, I have never felt, not even once, that I can’t handle them. Its just an anxiety which I suppose every mother confronts at the outset of motherhood.

Yes, its true that having a child is a revolutionary step in your life. Your schedule is suddenly run by their time table, but think about it, do you really care to do anything else beyond them? Their endless gurgles don’t let you concentrate on anything but try sending them to their grandparents for a day, the silence would kill you. Their constant nagging as they eat their lunch gets on to your nerves. But guess what, you’ll soon find yourself sitting again and planning for what they’d like to have for dinner. True, they mess around the house and it’s a pain to keep it clean. But did a spic n span home ever gave you as much pleasure as their charming actions, when they enjoy spilling your lovely sofa? They bring in a significant change in your relationship with your husband but have you and your husband ever felt so complete before they came into your lives?

Just take sometime off and ask yourself. Everything changes from your wardrobe, your room, your married life to even your vocabulary. But so what, this is not the time you wonder about how it will all be done. This is the time, THE time to live every bit of it because you can get all the time in the world to work, to read, to do every little thing that you have always wanted but you WON’T EVER get their first 2 years back when they do so many things the FIRST TIME - When they say their first word, they first roll over, they dance, they take their first step, their first climb, their first sentence.

Once tiny babies would grow too fast and you really can’t do anything to make these moments last. So just stop worrying and start enjoying.

Ask me how proud I felt when I got a call the other day, ‘Can I please speak to Pallavi’s mom? And it only fills my eyes with tears when I ask my elder one my favourite question “Ani, You love Mumma?” and she nods with such an adorable smile saying YES.

When we try to teach Pallavi to say a few new words, I can’t help feeling so elated when she refuses to utter anything except her favourite one - “Mumma”. Even I have called out this word more than a thousand times to my mom but I truly didn’t know what it means to her until now. Frankly, I don’t know if I can be what God has told them but to me they are my Angels, my World.